Been a while

Its over a fortnight since I posted anything on my blog. 😦 Just that my ideas don’t get translated into writing and many times gets lost within my brain! Of late, there have been a lot of things that are keeping me busy.

  • Prosoft Studio and Free100MbHost: Both are ventures by a friend of mine and I’m helping him with what I can to make it a profitable success. 🙂
  • I’m now an administrator at DNTemple, which actually demands a lot of my time nowadays. Still like it; its owned by another friend, and he has invested a lot into it.
  • The newest additions to my addictions has been World of Warcraft, shortly, WoW. I play on a private server, ’cause I cannot afford $15 (especially, on a game) to play on the official server. The gameplay and graphics are amazing. The game as an enchanting ability to keep you hooked for a long time. 🙂
  • Besides, my semester exams are fast approaching with so much left to do. Project, internals, I’ll have to let go of my online-life for a while. 😦

I’m posting a new poem ‘The Lone Crusader‘. This was a poem which I wrote when there was a huge clash between my friends. I did lose a lot of friends that day (the poem subtly says a lot about it) and in a way I’m happy that happened; I got to sieve the true friends amongst the impostors. What happened then, I guess, is a different story for a different day. 🙂

Flurry four

I was tagged by Mary on a Meme. This is my first. 🙂 The idea is to take number 4 as the theme.

4 colors I like most: Red, Blue, White and Black.

4 movies I’d watch again: Godfather, The patriot, Police Academy Series, Lord of the Rings

4 movies I regretted watching: Apocalypto, Dhoom 2, The Last Legion, Epic Movie

4 sweets I like: Kheer, Rasgolla, Jalebi, Laddu

4 places in India I like to visit: Munnar, Darjeeling, Manali, Kashmir

4 places outside India: Switzerland, All of US, Singapore, Australia

4 things I’m crazy about: Computers, Internet, Programming, Web Design

4 things I can’t live without: Friends, Computer, Bike, Food!

4 cartoon shows I liked: Dexter’s Laboratory, Swat Cats, Tom & Jerry, Popeye

4 people I’d tag: Harsha, Pavan, Ravencasper, ? (Don’t personally know anyone else who blogs! 😦 )

I turned 21 today!

Well, seems like a long time: 21 years in this world. Don’t know if I must be happy for my birthday or sad for getting older. Well, I did get a lot of wishes right at 00:00 – Hulee, Baby, Pele, Fakru, Gabri, Arnold, Vatsa wished me via IM and SMS. And I got calls from Silveron, Bottle and Sniggs. That’s about it now. All the lazy people sleeping away to glory will be wishing me later in the day I suppose! I’m planning to take them out for snacks near my college.

That’s all for now. Its 1:24 AM. I’ll update this post later. 🙂

A lot of things happened since my ‘happy’ post: Into Deep Sh**

2 years since I started blogging!

I’m very happy that, its been over two years since I started blogging (05 Apr, 2006) with WordPress.com. Before that, I had an account with Blogster.com, which was formerly Blogster.net. Anyways, it wasn’t long before I switched over to WordPress.

Where are the archives?

Well, when I started off the blog, it was mainly to put up online my large collection of jokes and email forwards. I have now moved it to a different place. (Its still under development, and I’ll give out the link once its up 🙂 ) So, I wasn’t much of a writer then; I’m not so now either, owing to the amount of ‘creative’ time I spend on writing these days.

Anyways, I read Mary’s article on her finding of a news-piece, which put forth the bad effects of addiction to blogging. And also Caroline‘s comment which linked to an interesting post. It talked of the freedom of a blogger and the sense of ‘Blogging Without Obligation’ (BWO). After thinking about it a lot, I think addiction to blogging is the safest addiction out there! 😉 😛

The Greatest Insult

‘Insult’ isn’t a very hard word to define. In fact, its easy to describe it when you insult; and easier when you get insulted. Formally, insult can be defined as: a rude expression intended to offend or hurt. This rude remark may not be deliberate, but 90% of the times, it is.

For me, insult means something different. Something that is inside you; rather than the effect of a remark made by someone. I define insult as an attack on the ego. And as a direct consequence of this attack, there is anger, humiliation, embarrassment, and restlessness that gets developed. These feelings, many times end up putting a person on a tensioned spring, awaiting to pounce on an opportunity to get back even with the insulter. In short: revenge mode. Apart from the direct effects, insults, especially to kids, mean discouragement, deprivation of hope, a lapse of confidence, and also a big reason for disheartening and dispiriting them.

Instead of delving into the philosophy of an insult or ego, I would present an incident that happened in my school days, but before that, this was how I was at school:

I was a person who gave more importance to knowledge rather than the marks that my report card reflected. The marks or grades that I obtained at school did not affect me at all – be it high or low. When many of my friends (especially girls) wept because they lost 2 marks, I used to laugh at them; I would have lost 10 marks! I used to get irritated and amused at the same time when sometimes my friends (specially girls, again) wept inconsolably for obtaining 98 out of 100! I would be over the clouds with marks like that!

Anyways, coming to the incident that I was going to narrate to you: this happened on the eve of my 10th Standard results. We got our results over the internet on the previous day. I had obtained 90.08%, which is pretty good; though I knew I could have done better. But like I was, it did not matter to me. Next day, I went to the school, all happy and smiling. The first teacher I met was my favorite teacher. She was my English teacher in 9th Standard; the one who had praised me before. I happily told her my result percentage and waited for her to say something. I expected a word of appreciation, or even criticizing me not to have performed even better. But as fate would have it, the greatest insult actually came from my favorite teacher! She said: “You surprised us all, Manoj”. I was dazzled for a moment and blinked at her. The sarcasm in her voice hit me so hard that I still remember the incident. I still don’t understand why she expected me to get lesser marks. I was so involved into what she said, that I don’t remember what I replied to that.

Sometimes, when I look back into all the incidents that had happened in my life, I wonder if I had lived life assuming that everyone around me *liked* me and was comfortable with me. And sometimes, I wonder if I’m still living life that way…